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Discussion Topic: Rachel's Diary
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02-08-2008 @ 8:38 PM
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Friday
Had a stinker of a day at work - trying to organise a stock take meeting - how difficult is it to get 4 adults into one meeting room for 10 minutes? You'd have thought I wanted to negotiate world peace (would be easier)
Got home an absolute wreck (tears, job paper, you know how it goes) and in need of a large drink; but had half hour with my dvd instead. Now I'm hot and sweaty and don't fancy that drink anymore! Also I'm not as hungry as I was earlier so it's a result all around 
Has anyone said how good this exercise lark is (may have been Skinny?) cos she was right.
Feeling quite contented again, but I'm not sure that me dancing around the office on Monday will go down too well when they wind me up to breaking point 
I'm glad I'm doing it now, because like the dieting you have to be in the right mind set and up until a week or two ago I wasn't.
Right, I'm off to sew some sequins onto my leotard Hey if it's good enough for Madonna lol
Rachel x
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02-08-2008 @ 10:24 PM
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Had a bad work day too Rachel and just home and going to have large white wine!! Have another great weekend.
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02-09-2008 @ 10:05 AM
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hi Rachel
Work is always hectic i think, but it makes the week end even nicer so enjoy yourself.
Me I am going to try and rest as much as possible , dont think i am going to lose anything at all this week because i haven't ate any thing for most of this week, no wonder i eneded up in hospital.
Any way have a nice weekend.
loadsa hopes, ambitions,goals and that
we can
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02-14-2008 @ 1:39 PM
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Thursday 14th February
What a week!
As you know, my mom was not well before Xmas and although we tried to get her to the doctor she wouldn't go. She's been getting gradually worse the past few weeks (crying a lot) and generally down. I'd made her an appointment for next week and would have come up with a story to get her there as I'm getting to the more than worried stage.
I spoke to her Monday and she was talking daft (one day I'll not be here, kind of daft) and again on Tuesday (If I take all my tablets I can end it all, I feel so worthless). I rang my dad and told him that I was going to bring the doctor's appointment forward and went to their house on Tuesday night.
I got there and she seemed great, laughing and joking and telling me that Dad was finally seeing the doctor tomorrow (he had to come up with an excuse for not being at work Wednesday).
I got an appointment for yesterday and my dad told her that she needed some professional help... as you can imagine she was not pleased and told him straight that there was nothing wrong and she would not see anyone.
To be fair to my dad, he kept his resolve and told her that she was not right, she did need help, but he didn't push it
We did get her to the doctor's (small victory) and he was great... he asked lots of simple questions about how she felt and her health in general. I took her in (because I can be the bad cop, instead of dad who has to live with her) and I told the doctor that we were worried about her, and that she'd been talking suicidal. I felt quite bad sitting there talking about my mom as though she wasn't in the room, but if I hadn't then maybe she wouldn't know how much I/we care about her. After a few minutes she was upset and left, but the doctor gave me a prescription for her. She's not eating (Sunday was her last meal) and is so constipated that she puts us reds users to shame.
We didn't push the tablets at her yesterday - she's got to want to take them - but I believe that last night she started them. I cooked for both of them yesterday and left not long after tea. I was going to stay longer, but dad said he would make sure she was OK and for me not to miss any more work (sod work - family has to come first!)
As I was leaving she thanked me for coming over - this from my mom is like most people holding a ticker tape parade for you!
I really hope that the tablets she's got will help with the eating (it's to relieve the pain in her chest and get her bowels moving), and the other tablets were anti-depressants. I don't know if she's taking them, I know she is taking the others, but at least she's got them and can decide for herself. I can't help thinking that she's made the first step (seeing the doctor) so maybe she's finally realised that there is a problem and help is available to her.
On a lighter note, I had a "headhunter" ring me last week and ask if I was interested in job not far from where I work but with much better pay. I sent her my CV and thought nothing more of it; my CV was pants and although I could do the job on my head I don't think I sell myself well enough!
Yesterday, she rang me to say that they want to see me next week - so I've got an interview wow
Then, this morning I got weighed and I've lost 3and 1/2lbs - taking me to 1&1/2 away from 3 stone
So, to sum up this week... up and down like a tart's knickers!
Parents, Work, Dieting... I don't remember signing up for the Awkward Life Package?
Rachel x
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02-14-2008 @ 3:51 PM
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Rachel Im sure you are so relieved about your Mum. I have been in a similar position though not as serious. Isnt it weird how you suddenly become the parent telling them what to do etc after so long of it being the other way around. Somebody does have to take control in these matters and it is usually better if it is someone who doesnt live there and can walk away from it when necessary. Good luck with the job too and dont sell yourself short - we all know just how eloquent you can be - just give any of us as a referee!!
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02-16-2008 @ 9:52 PM
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Saturday 16th
Went to see mom and dad today - she's taking at least 2 of the tablets but we don't think she' taking the antidepressants. Nobody wants to push it as she'll just refuse to take any! She's got another appointment with the doctor in a couple of weeks and she's OK with it (for now). All we can do is just keep an eye on her and hope for the best.
Well, we went out last night and had a great night. I didn't have any tea so drank on an empty stomach... on a scale of 1-10 I get a 9 for stupidity! My hangover was horrendous.
I haven't done my 20 mins dance either so tomorrow it's got to be a 40 minute session.
Tomorrow we are going to check out where my interview is - I've passed it twice but still not sure I've found it so we'll have a run over there and look for it. I'll let you know how it goes on Monday night Wish me luck!
Rachel x
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malone |
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02-16-2008 @ 10:55 PM
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Good luck Rachel - YOU CAN DO IT!
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02-19-2008 @ 6:17 PM
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Well the interview seemed to go well - I'm up against another 4 (so have 1 in 5 chance) - but you know what? I could do the job on my head and it would be a lot less stress than i've got at the moment too!
He's going to make a decsision by the middle of next week so I'll just have to wait and see. I'm trying not to think about it (cos that way it's no biggie if I don't get it).
I'm back at the doc's tomorrow and I know I've had a lousy month. Well actually I've had a great month and that's the problem... kinda wish I was fat and had no social life lol
Also, the pills were in a different box and I think I've convinced myself they've not worked as well this month. To be honest, I can't seem to get full and even today I ate 2 bags of crisps... WHY!?
I'm going to get the reds from my usual chemist this month and see how it goes. I don't think I've lost anything this week, (potential gain after 2 bags of crisps) so I'm going to get weighed and kick start the new month good and proper.
Rachel x
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02-22-2008 @ 7:52 AM
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Friday 22nd Feb
What a week - I've no computer (it died a painless death), I've put on half a pound (OK so I did get drunk and eat like it was going out of fashion), I've been off work for a couple of days (but feel better for it now), and I've got a second interview on Monday!
I saw the nurse on Wednesday and my official weigh in was 2kg off - which she was happy with. Me, I'm not so happy with it cos I know I can do better - but when you consider that Feb08 has been one of the best months in history I should be grateful for the 2kg loss!
I told her that I didn't feel that the reds had worked as well this month as I've not really felt full, or had any of the side effects (she thinks maybe they were a "cheaper" version so not as effective?!). I did tell her about the working out though, and the fact that my social life had rocketed for the past four weeks. I kind of expected a talking to, but she said that a social life was OK - at least I wasn't at home stuffing my face and feeling sorry for myself (not quite like that, but you get the meaning). She also said that it was possible that I could be losing inches rather than weight, which I think may have some truth in it as today I'm wearing a pair of size 20 jeans and my belly doesn't look quite so big as normally.
Sadly (or not) my boobs are now looking HUGE in comparison to the rest of me and I may have to invest in a pair of snow shoes (the tennis racquet type) just to keep myself upright lol
My nurse target for this month is to get to 17.5 (which would be 3 stone total), and I want to do that in the next couple of weeks if possible - so it's back to the usual chemist for the reds this week!
I got a call last night saying that I have a second interview next week (so that's looking promising), and this morning I was up at 4.45 and working out - I was wide awake, so rather than lay there counting sheep I thought I'd do a 20 minute session before going to work. Weird thing is, I feel really good for it and was at my desk by 7.20 this morning
My mom seems to be doing better too - so it's all getting there
Generally I'm feeling good about life and even though it is a bloody miserable morning outside I'm smiling (that'll really puzzle 'em at work!!!)
Rachel x
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02-22-2008 @ 11:52 AM
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Sounds very hopeful about the job Rachel, glad everything going well. I too am having a day off work today - was very low yesterday and felt symptoms of depression I have had in past creeping on. Very difficult to cope in work and was near to tears a couple of time with rude customers on the phone (who dont normally bother me - hey its their problem if they are like that) Anyway should have gone home but took today off to try to gather myself and have house to myself and a bit of peace. Had a lie in and going to do the cleaning now and that way weekend will be free to enjoy. My weight IS going down but in ounces-bought new scales which give stones lbs and oz!! But just thought this morning well it probably went on in ounces!!! What brand are the 15s you are one that the nurse thinks might be cheapies? I have 2 types and I think one is better that the other - just be interested to see if yours same.
Good luck with 2nd interview & have a great weekend.
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