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Discussion Topic: Rachel's Diary
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08-29-2009 @ 10:53 PM
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hi rachel
Feel like im prying hun but just want to say , i know what your going through and thinking of you xxx Hey and YOU ARE ALREADY GORGEOUS xxxx
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08-30-2009 @ 4:34 AM
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Later that same evening...
My 2 friends came around tonight - one from Rochdale, one from Stockport (I sort of live in the middle of both of them) and they brought alcohol and humour. I've sat here and had a few drinks and laughed like a loon for 5 hours - it really was just what I needed.
I've eaten some pizza (yes I know I'm now on the gin and pizza diet so will be avoiding the scales for another week!)
I do want to thank everyone on here who has given me that support that I desparately needed. You don't realise how much this takes from you (well I didn't until girls turned up tonight with gin and empathy)
The plans for tomorrow may change slightly as it's already 4.30 and I'm cooking breakfast tomorrow and the kick off is at 1pm (so no gym)
Night all, I've managed 7 hours without crying, so maybe I'm on the road to recovery???
Rachel x
still no ticker!
Official (nurse) stats
28/05/09 116kg
24/06/09 110kg
23/07/09 108kg
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08-30-2009 @ 6:33 AM
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Morning Rachel,
First off, well done to you for finally eating something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes I know it was pizza, but look, you've eaten nothing for a few days so it's not going to matter is it. I'd rather you ate that than nothing, especially as you've had a little drink.
Secondly, well done to your friends for coming over to see you, that's exactly what a girl needs at a time like this - good old friend support! Theres nothing like chatting to your friends to help you relax a bit.
Thirdly, hey your the same age as me! 
Sorry - Thirdly, only you know whats best for you my girl! Only you know your husband, only you can decide whether to give him another try or not. The only thing that worries me, is that he's told you that he doesn't know what he wants when you asked him if he still wanted you. If he was sorry I would have hoped he would have jumped at the chance and said yes to you. I know you know your own mind and your a strong woman, but, just be careful Rachel - please? I don't want to see you hurt again awhile down the line.
Now, I know your plans for today have changed so this might not apply after all but..................
In one way it's good that your not putting your life on hold and you want to go to the gym and have a good sweating session ( Oh no, she's lost her marbles and turning into Kev! ) heehee 
BUT.....is it a good idea while your not eating? Your blood sugar is going to be soooooo low Rachel, your liable to pass out and hurt yourself my girl!!
So please think about that first before you go, ok?
Your cooking breakfast???? Go on girl, get stuck in and have a little bit if you can, just try alitte bit.
You can start worrying about the scales when your back to eating normally again. Hopefully the pizza might have helped your appetite come back a bit.
As for thanking us, don't be so daft girl!
You would do the same for us if the situation was reversed. Hey, we are all on here to help each other. Yes we are fighting together to lose weight, but if any of us are having other problems along the way that's affecting that, if we can help, we will. Well, that's how I see it anyway.
Can anyone lend me £50, I've a bill to pay......... Only joking! heehee 
Well Rachel, I'm off to do my workout ( BOO HOO ) 
I don't fancy it today but.......oh well, when needs must I suppose........
Take care today, and keep intouch ok?
Debs
xxx
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08-30-2009 @ 10:12 AM
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Sunday morning
I've slept (got about 3 hours on sofa) and I've woken up feeling a little better about it all. I'm still in limbo, so I moved the furniture around in the living room and took the bloody awful nets down - I never liked them but put them up to keep him happy!
After 2 days I felt something about five minutes ago... I was feeling hungry and ready to eat something. I'm just waiting for Denise to get up, Julie's hubby has already collected her, and I'm going to cook some breakfast - a bit of bacon and egg I think.
I was also wondering if I can get on the scales tomorrow and declare a 14st loss over the past week? Just a thought
I'm going to give the gym a miss after all - I want to clean the bathroom and get the house looking something like. Not for him, no way - for me!
Oh and I'm still going to the pub later - only to watch the football (it's not even a team I like, but I'm under orders from the landlady!!) and to have the free food at lunchtime - corned beef hash I think yum!!
I'm also cooking a chicken for dinner, so the kids can just come back and throw in some chips and sort themselves out.
I still love him, but he's got to be willing to work at our marriage, there is no free pass back into my life - too late for that now! (Oh I hope I can be this strong when/if he finally decides to knock on the door)
Rachel x
still no ticker!
Official (nurse) stats
28/05/09 116kg
24/06/09 110kg
23/07/09 108kg
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08-31-2009 @ 8:13 AM
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Morning Rachel.
Did you manage to eat something yesterday, I hope so.
Well my best mate has just given me the perfect excuse I need to re-charge me old batteries. She's asked me to go and stay at hers next weekend after I have my tattoo done on Friday morning. So Sun, Sea, and Sand is the order............well ok, so she only lives on Canvey Island, but she lives right by the sea wall!
And I've had some lovely peacful walks along there I can tell you. I usually sit quietly for ages just listening to the water and thinking....................................thinking, my god I need the little girls room! heehee
So, I will be dragging her and her kids out for long lovely walks ( yeah I know, IF the weather is ok! )
Hopefully when I get back Rachel, I will be back in the right frame of mind again and ready to tackle this big fight with my weight. And lets hope I win the prize and the title of ' The Most Gorgeous and sexiest bum wiggle' in my road! heehee. Yeah I know, that's pushing it abit, but what the hell, we can all dream can't we? haha 
Now then Rachel, back to more important things.........
I know you said you were seeing Phil before lunchtime today.......
So my girl I wish you all the luck in the world, and I hope things go the way you want them to. Be strong and remeber to do whats best and right for you. Your the person who is important in all of this Rachel, so remember that. I'll be thinking of you, and my best wishes and hopes go with you.
If you feel like it, let me know how things went. If you don't want to chat thats ok, just drop a line on here to say your ok.
Well, I'm off to tackle the dreaded workout. I didn't enjoy it yesterday, for some reason I found it difficult. But I'm still slugging it out and pushing on with it! 
So take care Rachel and Good Luck
Debs
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08-31-2009 @ 9:12 AM
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Debs that's ace - lovely walks by the sea are just wht the mind and body needs to recharge!
As for me and Phil, I don't really expect him to turn up this morning - but I'll wait and see.
Yes, I had a bacon butty, 2 sausages and some curry yesterday - Oh, but I did drink quite a lot too... 5 or 6 ciders and a couple of bottles of lager (god, what diet is this?)
Today I'm cooking a chicken for lunch, so I'll be having some proper cooked food - then tomorrow I'll be back on my merry way with the right foods and an attitude to match!
I'll let you know what happens later - one way or the other
Rachel x
still no ticker!
Official (nurse) stats
28/05/09 116kg
24/06/09 110kg
23/07/09 108kg
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08-31-2009 @ 9:18 AM
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Just wanted to say good luck for later!!
I've had a busy week so haven't had time to post much but I have been reading when I've had chance!
Mel xxx
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08-31-2009 @ 12:37 PM
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Rachel,
I've just listened to a song I have by Nickelback.
It's called 'If today was your last day'.
And by listening to it and the words, it's just kicked me straight up the behind and made me realise that I am just as important as anyone else. And that I have to have confidence in myself to do what I need to do.
I know it may sound strange to some people thinking that a song can't have that kind of affect. But knowing your into my kind of music, I know you will understand how strong some of the words in our music can be.
I really enjoy this song, it lifts my spirits no end!
If you haven't got it, go on the internet and see if you can find it and listen to it Rachel. It's helping me, maybe it can help you too. Oh! and it helps to close your eyes and listen!
I hope it helps you............
Debs
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08-31-2009 @ 1:40 PM
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I've just read the lyrics... good
I do understand that music can change people - that is what good music is all about... the ability to move a person.
To make someone laugh, or cry just from the words you have written is a powerful gift that shouldn't be used lightly or taken for granted.
That's it, I've finally fallen over the edge of reality into my own insane world
Rachel x
still no ticker!
Official (nurse) stats
28/05/09 116kg
24/06/09 110kg
23/07/09 108kg
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08-31-2009 @ 2:13 PM
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Well I must have fell before you did then!
Oooh, I'm a fallen woman - I like the sound of that!
Heehee 
I'm back off out the garden again before the sun disappears for the week again!
Did you see Phil??
Debs
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