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Discussion Topic: MoonGoddess's Diary.
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libbyling |
08-26-2008 @ 9:42 PM
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hello my dear!
first of all, you are an AMAZING PERSON FULL TIME CARERS ARE TO BE SALUTED!
NOT AN EASY JOB!!!
you are not only having to think for yourself but for your mum too, but who looks after you when you need it?
ANSWER- US! WE WILL SUPPORT YOU!
well done on your progress so far and thankyou for your honest heartfelt comments that we all feel and not always post.
keep going my dear and enjoy your break
libby xx
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08-27-2008 @ 9:05 AM
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Hi MG, just read your diary all the way through and I wanted to say how well you are doing hun, I have been taking reductil on and off now for 18 months, I have been successful and managed to lost 6 stones 5lbs but recently had a gain of 2 stones. I used to stand on the scales daily/twice/three times a day in the beginning, but this time around I have decided not too, I have a slate floor in my kitchen and I have a certain tile that I always stand on, yet I fluctuate like anything, I recently got a wii fit and something that I have noticed is that my centre of gravity is out and that my balance is not correct and I wobble all over the place, maybe the reason why the scales show different results each time, perhaps as I become thinner, they will calm down and give me a true accurate result.
Good luck hun before you know it you be hula hooping and ski jumping on that wii fit.
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08-27-2008 @ 3:59 PM
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I've just written a very long post and lost it.
I am putting weight on. I've had a terribly upset tummy for 3 days and I've put on nearly a stone now.
The OH has just confirmed that I really don't look any different to just before I started the Reds. He also cannot fathom how I can eat 3 good meals a day and lose no inches and now put on a stone.
I think this is my last month on the Reds because they are not working for me at all. They suppress my appetite but the weight is not moving. The docs will be horrified when I explain what has occured and will say I'm stuffing my face or something.
I feel others think me a fraud because they weight isn't moving and I have so little energy.
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libbyling |
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08-27-2008 @ 4:01 PM
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HEY
now then, if YOU KNOW IN UR HONEST HEARST OF HEARTS that you havn't been over-eating then, maybe the reds need a bit longer to take effect, or go up to 15mg??
i know its really worrying but am sure you will be ok and that your doc knows you are being genuine about all of this,
libby xx
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MoonGoddess |
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08-27-2008 @ 4:22 PM
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Libby
I have to force myself to eat so I don't eat too little.
I don't understand.
The weight looked like it was falling off but maybe it was just the scales playing up. 
And because I can't get a true reading from the doctors I really don't know what is happening.
No-one is saying - "oh are you losing weight?" - afterall it has been two months now something should show. No inches lost or anything.
I just feel like curling up in bed and crying. Food IS my enemy - it's how I got like this and now it's still killing me even though I've cut down so much. This could only happen to me.
I can't even bloody become anorexic or bulimic as I can't and never have been able to make myself throw up! I don't mean to diss anyone who is but that's just how bloody unlucky I am.
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libbyling |
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08-27-2008 @ 5:27 PM
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ah I am sorry my dear, but please don't feel like giving up it is very upsetting when it doesn't look like your succeeding, but how are your clothes feeling?
maybe the scales are not accurate, and giving you false readings, I hope you soon feel a bit better and please don't give up.
enjoy some chill time, have a nice bath, read a good book?
take care and big hug xx
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MoonGoddess |
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08-27-2008 @ 8:33 PM
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I'm sorry I just panic because I can't see it and no-one else seems to either.
But I am feeling a little heartened now. I just read the shoe shrinkage thread and well I've not gone down a size but my walking trainers which were extra tight are now easy to get on and off and I just thought it was the shoe stretching but maybe not.
Maybe it's just I have so much to lose that it won't notice for about another couple of stones.
I bought a pilates dvd from Amazon this evening. I thought I would give that a go as I was reading up about how many calories muscle uses up and that walking and jogging are good but I need to develope body muscle again.
I am - however going to have a blow out tonight because I have felt so crap - I'm doing mushroom cous cous with two chicken thighs, (meat only), tinned mushrooms and the devilish bit a cream sauce which is Campbells condensed mushroom soup - trust me it's lovely!
I also took all that negative energy and walked around the block twice with the dog.
Sorry - I know a go on a bit.
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jellybabie68 |
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08-27-2008 @ 8:34 PM
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Hi could you post what you eat on a rough day? maybe you really are not eating enough, this is what I have eaten today
2 slices of toast with butter
1 cheese roll
1 packet of walkers baked crisps
1 alpen bar
grilled steak, fresh spagetti in tomato and mascapone sauce
3 lemon and raisin pancakes
plus 30 mins on the wii fit.
looking back this seems quite a lot and I must admit I did have to force my dinner down tonight as I had no appetite whatsoever.
I think you need to throw your scales away and find a chemist somewhre not as big as boots that you could weigh yourself once a week discreatly.
I also had sickness and diarroah over the weekend and put that down to why I lost so much weight last week, something is not right for you to have gained a stone over the weekend with being ill, I really think your scales are buggered hun.
Dont get yourself too down, I had to lose coming up to 4 stones before anyone commented and although I lost over 6 stones I only dropped 3 dress sizes.
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08-28-2008 @ 7:32 AM
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Hi there
I was just going to make the same comment as Jelly, it took a good few months for me to see any changes in size, then all of a sudden it happened. I was fretting because although I knew I had lost, it was not making any difference and it gets disheartening to hear how others are moving by multiple dress sizes with only a few kilos off.
I think this is because there is always this negative tape running that says "been fat for ever, always going to be fat - and you are deluding yourself to think otherwise".
I suppress the tape, and I am winning the battle. It doesn't take much to shake that confidence though, it is very fragile at this stage.
Keep going, you are doing all the right things, so it has to have a positive effect eventually. Good on you for channelling your frustration into a walk. Could so easily have gone to the cupboard or given up. That is the surest sign of your long term chances for success as far as I am concerned.
Sue
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MoonGoddess |
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08-28-2008 @ 10:52 AM
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Well just so you don't think I'm not eating enough here is a typical sort of day:
Breakfast: Jordans Crunchy Oats with honey and nuts large bowl with my only vice Jersey milk.
Sometimes an extra piece of fruit. Water
Lunch: ok sometimes I miss it and not deliberately but it can range from 4 pieces of fruit to soup and bread, or sometimes I have a piece of fruit with 4 Dr Krag pumpkin seed and emmantal (sp) cheese - which is baked on not me adding it. Water
Dinner: often it is grilled turkey breast that comes with no fat and sometimes I put a marinade of honey and mustard on it. Either loads of veg or salad. Sometimes I have either cous cous or pasta or brown rice. I alternate the turkey sometimes with tinned salmon or tuna or egg. Fruit and water
I rarely snack and that is only dried fruit and not very much. I have not tasted chocolate since starting reds, I have had one digestive biscuit, I have had when it was hot some ice cream - but still lost weight. I don't drink anything but water and the occasional cup of tea.
However, if I am out somewhere and I am hungry I will very occasionally have a baked potato with baked beans and a bit of cheese, or like on Sunday evening I felt hungry and we stopped at a Starbucks and I had a skimmed milk hot chocolate, (I don't do coffee ever), and a croque monsieur chiabatta which is ham, mustard and mozzarella.
Because I am eating well compared to how I used to eat, I do occasionally and I stress occasionally afford myself something naughty, like last nights dinner. I don't go out much, but lately I go to a few airshows with the OH and my brother. I took fruit and crispbread on Sunday while they ate burgers and rubbish like that.
So I don't think I am under eating. But it sure as hell is so much less than I used to eat.
With regards this morning - I am terribly constipated and feel so heavy. I did a little this morning - not done now for 36hrs - and weighed and back to 26st 6lbs.
With regard the exercise - I am waiting for the pilates dvd to come. With the best will in the world and having been a dancer in my early life - up til about age of 20 - there is no way I can do serious exercise at 26st - I will do myself a serious injury which won't help when I am trying to look after mum. I already did my shoulder in at Christmas playing Wii Sport and I still get trouble with it.
I know several people who have lost a lot of weight and they all only started exercise at around the 22st mark because they just couldn't before that.
I am trying my best but I thought as I was so big it might have come off faster to begin with. Of course it's making me paranoid I know that, but then I've sorta been here before, lost a stone and then it all stops and I give up, (not on the Reds), I just really want it to work because I really do want to be slim and get fit.
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